Long Time No Post.

May 19, 2011

It has been over a month since I have visited this URL. I am glad that my computer remembers it in the search bar, or I may have not been able to navigate my way back. I think it would suffice to say that my quiet times have been severely lacking, and that I have had entirely too much time to be in my own head. I think I am getting a cold...in May. For some reason that irks me. I feel like I definitely need to get back in the writing habit, it keeps me a little more balance in the cabeza, and because all my avid readers are just aching for more titillating words from a tenacious girl (I really just wanted to use those two words, switch them if you would like.)

Crazy- Gnarles Barkley
Oh man, I was sitting here thinking to myself "I am going crazy...craaaazy.....craaaazaaaaay." So naturally I turned on this little ditty. I have, honestly, felt sorta crazy the past month. I talked about this with Amo recently, and maybe a better word for it is "restless." I have just had this butterfly-y "gotta get out" feeling. It's really hard to deal with, and it's even harder to explain. I have no idea where it's coming from, but the thing that makes me the most uncomfortable is just sitting still, just "being." I just sit and think, and then want to do. But al the things I want to do are unrealistic or just plain crazy.
Holy cow! I want to be content, or be content with being content. I don't think it's a boy thing, or a friend thing, or an anything-thing. I just feel like I need to move, at this very second I am shaking my legs beneath my keyboard. I don't think talking about it would help, talking makes me think, thinking makes me do, and then realizing I can't do makes me antsy.
ANTS IN MY PANTS!

I need this now more than ever:
PSALM 4:8
 In peace I will lie down and sleep,
   for you alone, LORD,
   make me dwell in safety


I can't wait for camp, or a sound sleep. Whichever comes first.