Fed To Death- Say Anything

March 20, 2011


It's been a dang good day! I am adjusting to life one step closer to a 12 year old rather well, and tomorrow's the big day for braces, dude, I'm going to be single for a while. Anyway, it's been a really great day. I "Just Danced 2" for about two hours and I am sad to say that I am sore. I am planning on running every day this week. I am meeting with an advisor and hopefully hearing back from lab opportunities. It's going to be a great week. Thank You so much for that. Friends, family, and You all the time. 


Fed To Death
Man, it took longer than I expected to put a Say Anything song up here, and this isn't even one of the ones I listen to the most. I don't know what it is about this song, but I just don't want it to end. I want it to be longer. It just sounds so cool. 


Me and Max Bemis have had a wonderful relationship. We first met in tenth grade, we were introduced by one of my close friends of the time, and unfortunately only Maxy-poo and I still remain close. I have seen Say Anything live two glorious times, and I can't wait for the day that I get to see them again. They are probably my favorite band, and that's kind of surprising. And in a weird way, their music makes me want to be better, and see God working in really intense ways.


Max is Jewish, I think, but throughout the band's albums has gotten closer to forming his own relationship with the Big Guy. There's a song on their self-titled album that sounds like kind of has gotten to the point where he acknowledges God. When I listened to the song, I got really happy. In a strange way, I felt more connected to the music and to God. I  may never actually meet Max, but given his background and seeing where he seems to be now, is amazing. Don't underestimate the power of God, especially since He's got a plan. And we all fit into it in random (to us) but perfect (to Him of course) ways. 


Ok, this was more about the band than the song, but I do love them. And this song is great.


Numero Diez!
I really like the Message version of this Psalm. It's got some really intense parts in it. In the beginning David is asking God if He is avoiding him (thank goodness for capitalization or that sentence would have been so much more confusing). There have been so many times that I have thought that I have been abandoned by God. So many times where I find myself asking Him " Where the heck are you? Why am I feeling so alone?" I know that there are other things You have to worry about, but I'm hurting here, like people are out to get me and I can't see or hear or feel You anywhere. Am I supposed to do this on my own?


No. I'm not. You are there the whole time. You have a funny way of getting Your point across and I want to say thank You for that. How many times have I felt like I have been left to fend for myself, or felt insurmountable pain and thought You nowhere to be found, when the whole time You were there, keeping me safe. I've heard that You only allow as much as we can handle to happen, and I want to say I appreciate the confidence and the pain. 


Pain is necessary for me to realize that I need You, and the way You do it is not in an overbearing "I am so much better than you" sort of way, but it's out of love. And You never let me fall past the point where You can catch me. I have been given a unique set of experiences that shape my love and relationship with You. And the most wonderful thing about each experience, is that I get to see You, parts of Your goodness, faithfulness, love. Thank You. 


With the pain comes a promise, and this is something I want to hold on to and own. All of the things that I go through, all of the hard times here, are no match for how great Heaven will be. In Your time, everything will be redeemed. Everything will be set right. I want to thank You for this promise:


Psalm 10: 17-18
"The victim's faint pulse picks up;
the hearts of the hopeless pump red blood
as you put your ear to their lips. 
Orphans get parents, 
the homeless get homes. 
The reign of terror is over, 
the rule of the gang lords is ended."

Fed To Death